Eye infected

My left eye got infected again. Every time if there’s any renovation going on near my house, my eye will surely get infected. It’s too dusty. Back in year 1993 when my house was being renovated, both my eye got infected. The doctor even said that there were a whole ‘family’ in my eye. So after a few days of medication, I was ok. Now my eye only reaches the level where my lower eye lid is very red. So, I’m not going to use medication first. I’m just going to use Optrex to wash it and see how it turns.

Masks Unveiled ......

There have been moments in my life ,
Where i turned and looked into the face of life ....
I saw an image of what i thought was me ,
A dasmel with hope as her guard in the dark nights ...
A prayer in the heart of those who have seen grey shades even
in the
brightest spark of light ,
Pride of what she was made up of , from the tides of failures and success ,
Determination so strong to , survive the journey of
tribulances and reach
her destination.
Thoughts , that reflected Independence of mind and body .
But sudden volacanic eruptions of time and cirumstances made me look beyond
the reflections of my image ,
So many masks i had worn to hide the real me ,
To hide the pain , to silence myself when i wanted to scream ,
To crub the need for a shoulder to cry on , with a belief of
independence
in my mind ,
To voice my opinion , when realites quitened me ,
Times as such reflect we are not only made up of what we are
but of what we
also potray what we are not
No one takes the pride in being a coward or a loser ,
So we all wear mask to hide ourselves from our conseiunce ,
But the courage is not always in fighting but also in
accepting defeat ,
In unveling all the burden of masks we carry throught our lives ...
To free ourselves from the fear of opinions ...
To realise the value of selfworth ,
To see beyond from what others forsee us as .


# This is an e-mail i get from a net friend. Quite meaningful, right?

Gatherings

Had been to a few gatherings.

March 7th
BJR, Wangsa Maju
Panda, Siu Yan, Wei Mei, Mr. MY, Heng Yik, Wen How, Lee Siong and me.
A ‘Welcome Back’ party for both Panda and Wen How from NS. And, a ‘Farewell’ party for Heng Yik who will leave for NS at Bintulu, Sarawak. Get to know how was the NS camp. Quite a pleasant evening.

March 10th
Kenny Roger, Jalan Genting Klang
Shy Jer’s house at Sri Rampai
Siu Yan, Jason, Tze Chean, Lai Hoo, Hock Hiem, Sheng Hao, Shy Jer, Swee Loo, Teng Fei, Jit Wai, Eng Chuan (only at KR) and me.
Right after getting our SPM result, we went to KR to have lunch. It was my first time eating at KR. Food was OK. Those who went there before said that their muffins are not good, but personally, I think it’s quite good. After lunch, went to Shy Jer’s house to GAMBLE. Siu Yan’s luck was real GOOD. She won more than RM 70 in less than 2 hours. Jason, Lai Hoo and Shy Jer lost the most. Party dismissed at 5:30. I then went over to Siu Yan’s house to try out her new piano. Went home at 10.

March 11th
Seng Koon’s house, Jalan Genting Klang
Siu Yan, Sheng Yun, Li Ting, Sheng Hao, Sheng Kai, Lee Siong, Hock Hiem, Kim Wai and me.
Almost an ex-band member BBQ party. Food, delicious. Seng Koon’s mum made tasty egg tarts. Really regretted for not ‘ta pao’-ing some home. I went there in Lee Siong’s car. WOH… This guy, drives like a MAD man. He didn’t see his back mirror before reversing his car. Nearly knock into a car. Come back home in Hock Hiem’s car. He drives real differently compared to LS. More stable, more safe.

March 15th
Times Square
Panda, Guardog, Mr. MY, Xiang Lea, Wen How and me.
Full report can be seen from

• Guardog
• Mr. MY
• Panda
  
  

The cover of the 6th HP book.

Found the cover of the latest HP book, the HBP.


UK children version.
Personally, I don’t quite like it. May be because of the colour combination?


UK adult version.
Ah, that's better. Mysterious enough.


US version.
OK, but still don’t like its HP and AD’s look. Fussy?

SPM result

An easy number to remember for the rest of my life.

4 1A's.
4 2A's.
4 3B's.

Easy?

JPA?

This is the first time my father showed concern towards my education.

This afternoon around 2pm, I got a call from him asking me to check Sunday’s Sin Chew Jit Poh for informations regarding JPA. After getting the informations needed from the newspaper, I called my father to report to him. Assuming that he was getting those info for his friend/colleague, I told him the website to get the form. I even told him that his friend can buy the form from Bank Simpanan Nasional with the cost of RM 6.50.

Then the shock came. He said was actually asking for me, not for his friend. He said his friend’s son got it a few years ago; currently studying at Australia. *From what my father told me through the phone, if I ever get it and complete my studies with excellent result using the JPA loan, the loan can be converted to a scholarship.* I told him that if I want to get it, I must have very good result (from the website, I need to have a whole bunch of 2A to get the course I want). But I’m not even sure whether I can get results as good as my sister did (8A’s). So, how am I daring to think about getting a JPA loan?

At last

At last, it's just a joke afterall. They are not gonna quit blogging. It's an early April Fool celebration. Oi, Doc and Michael Ooi, give me back my money!!! I've been on the line for hours to get the news man...

Quitting or not...

Yesterday, the whole blogosphere was tensed up following the announcement that Michael Ooi might quit blogging. Even Doc said the matter might affect his career and the Japan trip he planned.

What will happen in the end?

Can he still dominate?

12:00 pm
Torpor: Oh gosh, it’s 12 already. Mi ah, I watch F1 ah… Don’t ask me to help in the kitchen.
*Quickly on the TV, the fan and the light; remote control ready in my palm*

TV: M. Schumacher – current position = 11… Kimi Raikkonen – 10… 23 laps left

Torpor: OI, Schumacher, you better at lease get ONE point in this race!!!

Torpor’s mom: *Don’t know anything about F1* What place can get 1 point?

Torpor: 8 lo…

Torpor’s mom: Then he sure can one la. Still have 23 laps what…

Torpor: *Remembered how Schumacher did last season* Yea lo hor… Last time he started from the pit lane then went to 12 when there were about 20 something left, finally ended up at 8th place. Sure can… Sure can…

TV: 20 laps left…

Neighbour: *Came to see my mother* Eh, you also watch F1 ah… Girl wor… My son don’t want to watch liao after M. Schumacher qualified so low. So what his position now?

Torpor: 11. *Continue to chat with the neighbour without watching the TV*

Suddently…
TV: M. Schumacher and N. Heidfeld collided. Both out of the race.

Torpor: Ei, what happened? Why like that? I want replay!

TV: Replay of the scene Schumacher and Heidfeld collided.

Torpor: Bodoh Schumacher… Why go knock him? See, sendiri pun sudah keluar… *Sign*

So in the end, Fisichella from Renault won the Australian Grand Prix, with Barrichello 2nd, Alonso 3rd, Coulthard 4th, Webber 5th, Montoya 6th and Klien and Raikkonen to round up the first 8.

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Nervous

Felt the nervousness more and more as the day we are supposed to collect our SPM result comes nearer. My uncle from Hong Kong just called us just now. And silly me told him I’m gonna get my result next Thursday. He said he will call again next Thursday just to know my result.

I don’t know… Maybe because of my PMR result, I have the feeling that everyone’s eyes are on me again. Hoping or thinking that I’ll get excellent result again. Oh, this thought really is a burden to me. What will others say if my result is real bad?

SPM result ready to be collected on the 10th

It's out in today's newspaper that the SPM result we were waiting will finally be out on the 10th of March.

I'm in great pressure now. 10th of March is also my mother's birthday. Either I deliver a good present to her or a bad one. Although she said to me last night before retreating to bed that she don't care much as usual, I still hope I won't disappoint her.

My sister said she wants me to call her right after I get my result. But mother warn me not to do it because she's having her year-end exam in the afternoon, don't want her emossion be disturbed.

Sign... I'm real nervous now. How will my result turn out?

Gravatar problem

Have some problem with gravatar, so asked Squall since he is online. Haha… I made him bang his head on the wall until bleed because of my idiot-ness in Web. Well, need to thank him anyway for helping me solve the problem. Now I can have the gravatar displayed every time I leave a comment.

Finally she said it

After working for 2 months at the new firm, my mother finally got fed up with the boss’s hot temper (scolding without knowing who was supposed to do the job). *I wonder whether she realise she did it to me too.* She tells him she’s giving him a 24 hours notice (wanna quit job).

Before my mother comes home, she boss ask her to go into his room to have a talk. Assuming his gonna fire her, my mother was surprised how soft he spoke to her. He wants her to stay and work for him, saying that with my mother’s experience working in a big firm like Marubeni Corp. (a Japan listed company) for 25 years can help in improving their working system. Man, their working system really lousy. As an example, if you want to find a file, you need to find through ALL the box files there are in the office. Sometimes, you might not find it after all the trouble you went through. Who wanna work in this kind of office? Anyway, my mother says she will continue, but she will quit if she really can’t stand it anymore.

Torpor’s day

This morning, I went online around 10:30. After reading several blogs I turned to find websites about the 6th Harry Potter book. While doing that I also chatted with KCL. It seems to me that she’s real down, talking about only having a few true friends and scared of going back to school to collect her result (actually scared of facing those blue shirts I think…). After sometime, she was telling me that she put my English at the same level as Hui Fen and Chi Kuan. This thought really shocked me. It even scares me. Thinking of being at the same level with those two had never ever crossed my mind. How can? They are like… woh… SUPERB. I’m never gonna catch up. Later YSY jointed our conversation. When YSY added NSL a.k.a. Ribena to 2004 5S5’s, KCL immediately left the convo. When I ask her why she left, she answered me “I won’t talk to him”. Looks like there’s something wrong with this two.

Anyway, I offline after being online for more than 2 and a half hours. *Shhh… Don’t let my parents know. They will kill me if they find out.* Because of facing the computer for too long, headache came. So I went to have a bath (looked in the mirror and found one of my tooth was out of the ‘shadow’ of the tooth in front of it. I’m so glad I finally saw improvement after 3 months having the braces on), then a nap. Woke up at 4:30 pm and started to prepare for dinner. Gosh… I hate washing vegetable. It requires a lot of time and carefulness. Every single leaves must be checked, bad ones thrown away. So, my fingers were all wrinkled after soaking in the water for about an hour. Finish washing the vege means cooking time. Need to cook 2 dishes while one is steaming on the rice cooker. Talking about cooking, yesterday I finally tried frying French bean. Usually, I will leave the frying job for my mother because I’m scared of the popping hot oil. Well, it was not as hard as I thought. I just need to run away from the wok after throwing the beans in and go near the wok after a while with a pair of chopsticks to turn them and then run away again. ^_^

# Over dinner, father said that he might be going to Japan in May to see some of Jaya Jusco’s building there. But nothing had been finalised yet.

6th HP book out on the 16th of July

The 6th Harry Potter series - Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince will be out on the 16th of July. I plan to buy it on the day of it's release. So, you'll see me at KLCC before 7 am. Really hope i can buy it at half price again like what i did when tOotP came out.

By the way, i'm also planning to buy a whole new set of HP series (uk adult version) when the last one is out. My first 5 books are in real 'charm' condition now because i have been reading them over and over again. Pages are starting to fell off from it's binding and the paper getting yellow-er everyday.

Cooled down mind

Now, about 10 hours after the below post, i calmed down. Seeing that post terrifided me. How can i have the idea? Maybe sometimes my mother just really make me mad...

I can't stand anymore

The thought of running away from home came across my mind again today. I even had it in my dreams this morning. I don’t know how long more I can stand my mother always blaming me for everything, even things that should be my sister’s fault.